Well, God, with all due respect, are you really, I mean REALLY, out there somewhere? How am I supposed to hear You when I can barely hear myself think? The more I read Your Word, the more painfully aware I am that I certainly do NOT resemble the person You made me to be. I don’t seem to represent You very well. In fact, any achievements I may have collected over the years frankly pale in comparison to Who You are — Creator of the universe, Redeemer, and Lover of my soul. I am a pathetic excuse for a person — and I feel disqualified to receive Your love or even to hear Your still, small voice. As a result, sometimes I stop listening.
Are You there? Can You hear me now? ‘Cause I AM listening now, or at least, I am trying! — I got desperate enough and sick enough of myself as I am, that I am at least turning my ear to try to pick up Your voice again. It’s sad but true — You are the only Person I really, truly need, the only One I cannot live without, and yet I spurn You more than I spurn anyone else. Forgive me, Lord, for putting You off, ignoring You, and for turning a deaf ear out of my own dissatisfaction and disappointment with myself.
I praise You that YOU are faithful, even when I am faithless, for You cannot deny Yourself (2 Timothy 2:13). I am so thankful that You never leave me or forsake me (Deuteronomy 31:6). You love me, no matter what. Your love is unsearchable, eternal, and without limits. You gave Yourself for me. Tune my ear, Daddy, to hear and understand Your voice.
I thank You that, no matter how overwhelming my sense of failure may be, You count me as Your very own child. You have redeemed me and called me by name (Isaiah 43:1). I can count all things loss for the surpassing value of knowing Jesus Christ as my Lord (Philippians 3:8). You are able to redeem the very best (which isn’t much) and the very worst of me, as I am utterly ruined by sin and in need of You. Your Blood is the ultimate solvent — the solution for all my sin and inadequacy.
Jesus, THANK YOU for the hope that You deposited in me! Thank you that — YES, You ARE out there! Not only are You out there, You are within me! You have come to dwell in me and assure me that I belong to You (I Corinthians 6:19-20). Unplug my ears, Lord. Clean out the dirt and grime that keep me from being tuned to Your voice. You are the Great Transformer! Thank You, Jesus, for Your great salvation! Thank You for delivering me from myself! (Romans 7:24-25) Thank You for giving me Your very own Self — Your righteousness, Your holiness, Your love — when I have nothing. You have shared Your very Self with me, that I might have life (John 10:10).