Have you ever felt as if you were running on empty? It seems the holidays fall upon us earlier every year, and my battle to keep from drowning grows proportionally more intense. Although I have reasonably good organizational skills, I cannot possibly juggle all the items slung onto my plate. Life seems to grow continually more complex and frenzied. Once I asked God, “How can I ever hope to run with the horses, when I cannot even handle the foot soldiers?” (“If you have run with the footmen, and they have wearied you, then how can you contend with horses? And if in the land of peace, in which you trusted, they wearied you, then how will you do in the floodplain of the Jordan?” Jeremiah 12:5) In response, I felt the Holy Spirit whisper to me, “The pace and demands of life will not change. YOU need to change.” Needless to say, I was less than thrilled with His response to my desperation!
Years later, I still find myself regularly “running on empty.” I consistently re-evaluate my schedule and re-assess my priorities. I actually say “no” to people at times (something I NEVER used to do!). However, my life is chronically on overload. Suddenly, I realized that, in a way, I am exactly where God wants me. For Him to function more fully and freely in my life, it is imperative that I arrive at the end of my own energy and resources. I need to become desperate for a Source of life beyond myself. He longs for me to admit to Him that I need re-fueling and that my personal fuel tanks are completely depleted.
God wants me to be emptied of myself — my own strength, talents, abilities, resources, and confidence. Instead, He wants me to be re-fueled with HIS strength, talents, abilities, resources, and confidence. God longs to fill me to overflowing and top off my tank with HIMSELF. “Have you not known? Have you not heard? The everlasting God, the Lord, the Creator of the ends of the earth, neither faints nor is weary. His understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the weak, and to those who have no might He increases strength. Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall, but those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint.” (Isaiah 40:28-31) I thank God that He desires to fill me with His presence and empower me with His strength to do the things He has called me to do. He delights to abundantly provide for every need. His vitality and stamina are without limit. His fuel tank NEVER runs dry.
Thank You, Jesus, for allowing me to acknowledge the limits of my personal resources. Thank You for enabling me to recognize my need for You! Thank You for re-filling and re-fueling me for Your work! Thank You that I am aware I am running on empty and ready for a fresh infilling of Your Presence! Fill me up and top me off! Let me overflow with You. Teach me a new way to run the race set before me.