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In this moment

42-17251068I have been an impatient person (probably) my whole life. Many are the times God uses situations to teach me patience. Just when I think I’m mellowing-at least some-I find a new circumstance stirring my impatience pot. I put on blinders, pretending I’m not frustrated or angered, but the reality is I get stressed. God wants me to learn (and relearn) patience and understanding. As were the Israelites, I, too, am quite stubborn, pig-headed, hyper-focused, wanting things my way and in my time frame.
This is a new life season for me. Waiting for the birth of the first grandchild. Waiting. Waiting. WAITING!!!!! Past the due date, one day, two days, three days, four days…every day and every night asking for God to set the systems to go. This precious miracle of life I am longing to hold in my arms. It’s so very exciting and exhilarating! Can you understand why I am impatient? However, the expectations I have for the timing of this event have been overruled by Abba (Father). It’s a good thing He doesn’t ask my permission on these matters!
One year ago, I wasn’t sure whether my eyes would heal from hemorrhages or if I would ever drive again. (Look back to 8/24/15 entry for hiking blog beginning.) I think I had more patience then. But others may disagree. I knew regardless of the outcome, I would still live a full life albeit with some minor inconveniences. With an otherwise miraculous recovery, my God story was forming, getting ready for the telling. I was content to walk through the season of healing, sharing my miracle, drawing nearer to God.
Fast forward to celebrating life and the blessings a child brings to a family. Unable to drive, my daughter needed someone to be with her during the day.  I am blessed to have the flexibility to drop my schedule to help her.  That’s what moms do. It’s been two weeks. She has shown many signals that labor is not far away. Still, no birth.
God’s message is to enjoy every moment. Live in the now. Not the then or the yet to be. Don’t wish away life. Sometimes I am so focused on the next phase, I lose sight of the current phase. I need to embrace these days with my daughter. This time with her will never be back. Our dynamic will change as she takes on the role of mother and leaves daughter on the back burner. My prayer is that this will be a firm foundation for the changing relationship.
God’s plans are bigger and better than I can imagine. He only gives me enough vision for my current stage. I would want to jump ahead if I had the whole trip mapped out for me! He knows that too! He loves my daughter and grandson more than I do. He has perfect timing every time.
So, here I sit at her table, 500+ miles away from home. Thunderstorms rumbling the apartment. Lights flickering and lightning flashes. Waiting for labor to begin. Listening to raindrops on the roof and downspout.
Thank You, Father, for this step, for reminding me to not rush through life; for time to reflect and pray. Make me a blessing to someone everyday!

p.s. Hiking blog update coming soon.

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The Power of the Crumb

Jesus withdrew to the region of Tyre and Sidon. A Canaanite woman from that vicinity came to him, crying out, “Lord, Son of David, have mercy on me! My daughter is demon-possessed and suffering terribly.”  Jesus did not answer a word. So his disciples came to him and urged him, “Send her away, for she keeps crying out after us.”  He answered, “I was sent only to the lost sheep of Israel.” The woman came and knelt before him. “Lord, help me!” she said. He replied, “It is not right to take the children’s bread and toss it to the dogs.”  “Yes it is, Lord,” she said. “Even the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from their master’s table.” Then Jesus said to her, “Woman, you have great faith! Your request is granted.” And her daughter was healed at that moment.  (Matthew 15:21-28)

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This woman who approached Jesus had faith beyond what most of us have.   She was a foreigner rather than a Jew, so there was no guarantee that Jesus, a Jew, would even consider her request.   Moreover, she was asking Him to heal her daughter of demon possession, which required drastic intervention on Jesus’ part.  This woman was persistent, as she had been pestering Jesus AND His disciples.  When Jesus told her that He was sent only to the Jews, she humbled herself and knelt before Him; she did not argue.   However, she was most likely desperate to see her daughter healed.   When Jesus explained that it would not be right to toss to the dogs what was intended for the Jews, she pointed out that even the dogs gather up the crumbs that fall on the floor when the family has eaten.  Impressed by her faith and confidence, Jesus healed her daughter immediately.

The crumbs the woman spoke of were not just any old crumbs; they were the crumbs of the Bread of Life.   She knew who Jesus was and did not underestimate His power.  Even a crumb of His Presence would be enough to bring healing to her daughter.   Do WE really understand the power of God’s Presence in our lives?   The Bread of Life lives inside every believer; the Bread that always satisfies dwells within us!   The same Spirit that raised Jesus Christ from the dead lives inside of us (Romans 8:11).   Jesus is always MORE than enough for every need.   He is able to satisfy our hunger in every area and to fill us with enough to share with others.  Perhaps we need to meditate on the power of even one small crumb from the Bread of Life!  That little crumb could prove to be life-transforming!